“Trust in the Lord with all your heart…” Proverbs 3:5
A few weeks ago I had a dream. In it the Lord Jesus Christ was on His throne.
He held the earth in His hands. He was enormous, while the world was so little it fit safely into His palm.
He had a firm grip on the planet as He smiled at me and said, “I’m in control. No matter how chaotic things appear trust Me.”
I woke up and He helped me to paint that image, only not nearly so beautiful and powerful as it appeared in my dream.
Since I draw and paint with digital media on my IPad I like to record my painting journey and share it with my little granddaughters in hopes of inspiring them to become artists.
I believe the Lord would have me share this painting video with you in the hopes it will bring some hope or comfort to someone who may need it.
The Lord inspired me to begin this painting with one of my original bird paintings, a rather chaotic looking one! First He led me to deconstruct that bird painting and out of that insanity to begin something brand new; something bold and stable~
His throne began to emerge and then the form of Christ.
You will see this as you watch the video.
I have added the scriptures and end credits to my original drawing video with other video software since the art application software does not do anything but record the drawing, painting, or other creative processes, even mistakes!
But mistakes are part of the journey, aren’t they? 🙂
And now a word about my recent absence.
I know I can be silent sometimes for many long spaces.
But please don’t be alarmed by those seasons.
Chronic migraines make it quite a challenge to do anything with social media sometimes.
Always know I will come back, Lord willing, and share whatever He gives me to share with you.
Thank you always for your prayers.
Please know that no matter whether I’m present or absent, I’m always praying for you and your families. God knows this is true.
May the Lord use this painting video to bless and encourage those who need hope, in Jesus’ name. Amen.
Love always and forever in Christ,
“The Lord hath prepared His throne in the heavens; and His kingdom ruleth over all.” Psalms 103:19 KJV
There has been so much bad news lately that sometimes I find myself feeling very anxious and unsafe. Psalm 103:19 reminds me that God truly is in control of all things no matter what is going on in the world.
“The Lord hath prepared His throne in the heavens; and His kingdom ruleth over all.” ~ Psalms 103:19 KJV
The Psalmist tells us, “Bless the Lord, O my soul, and forget not all His benefits:” Psalms 103:2 KJV
The word he used for “forget” means “to forget, ignore, cease to care…”
He then goes over all of the wonderful things the Lord does for us: “Who forgiveth all thine iniquities; Who healeth all thy diseases; Who redeemeth thy life from destruction; Who crowneth thee with lovingkindness and tender mercies; Who satisfieth thy mouth with good things; so that thy youth is renewed like the eagle’s.” ~Psalms 103:3-5 KJV
Imagine spending a night in an agonythat affects every fiber of your body, unable to feel Christ’s loving presence, certain that you’re the chief of sinners, unforgiven, forever condemned to this abyss of torment.
Whenever there is a bad storm or rainy weather, I get violent migraines that rupture my mind with as severe emotional pain as the physical and neurological symptoms they cause.
Suddenly it seems I’ve fallen into a bottomless pit and that no one loves me—not even Jesus. I feel as if I’m the most despised of souls by everyone, even my family. I’m completely cut off, isolated in an abyss of pain. The burden of all the sins in the world are fastened around my aching head in a crown of thorns as sharp as daggers. My legs will not be still and seem like a thousand snakes are crawling inside of them. “My God, My God, why hast Thou forsaken me?”
I see Jesus on the cross crying to His Father and I cry out in tears for the Lord to come rescue me from this horrible torment. But I neither see nor feel Him. I’m a condemned sinner screaming and weeping in the darkness for I can’t bear to look at any light.
There in the Abyss I weep tears of remorse. Surely I must have been unkind to my husband, been the worst of mothers and grandmothers, daughters, siblings, friends, and citizens. I’m certain that I must have failed God and everyone else. And the most tormenting of all—-I must have committed the unpardonable sin— why else would I keep having these wretched migraines? Why else would God keep letting this happen to me?
In that pit of Sheol showers of condemnation pour mercilessly upon my soul like the rain drumming endlessly upon our windows and roof as the pain and neurological symptoms torture me.
My precious husband comes and prays for me, while I weep and pray unable to feel either Christ’s presence or love, nor even Mark’s, until at last I fall asleep, exhausted.
The next morning my symptoms are gone. I awake as if resurrected to new life. I’m filled with wondrous joy and peace, How grateful I am that Jesus went to the cross for me; that He has washed my sins away as far as the east is from the west. “Bless the Lord oh my soul. Forget not all His benefits. Who forgives all our sins, who heals all our diseases…” The beautiful sense of Christ’s love and presence enfold me in His arms.
I know then that He has held me throughout the night. He had not really abandoned me. Yet the dark storm of pain from my fierce migraine made me feel hidden from Christ’s presence and forsaken by Him who had promised to never fail or forsake me.
The Psalmist once experienced something like this. “Will the Lord cast off for ever? And will He be favourable no more? Is His mercy clean gone for ever? Doth His promise fail for evermore? Hath God forgotten to be gracious? Hath He in anger shut up His tender mercies? Selah.
And I said, This is my infirmity: but I will remember the years of the right hand of the most High.” Psalms 77:7-10 KJV
He goes through the bad things he suffers but then he says, “Ok, this is happening because of my afflictions. But I won’t dwell on the suffering. I will remember the good things God has done for me.”
In other words, “Bless the Lord oh my soul! Forget not all His benefits!”
Nationally we are experiencing a stormy path of darkness. Severe pain and troubling circumstances can make us feel isolated from the loving presence of God and cut off from all His promises.
God’s word promises that He heals all our diseases, He forgives all our sins. God is watching over all of us. He is still on His throne. He has not hidden His face from us. He hears all our prayers. Just as He eventually heals me from my migraines, I believe that the Lord will ultimately heal our nation from our current plague of troubles.
The definition for the word the Psalmist used for healing is interesting: (BDB Bible Dictionary Definition of original translation~ rapha~Strong’s H7495) To be healed of national hurts (figuratively) Of personal distress (figuratively) Of national defects of hurts (figuratively) To heal (literally) Of hurts of nations (Involving restored favor)
“The Lord is merciful and gracious, slow to anger, and plenteous in mercy. He will not always chide: neither will He keep His anger forever. He hath not dealt with us after our sins; nor rewarded us according to our iniquities.
For as the heaven is high above the earth, so great is His mercy toward them that fear Him. As far as the east is from the west, so far hath He removed our transgressions from us.” Psalms 103:8-12 KJV
Not one of us deserves the grace that has been given us by the Lord through the cross of Christ, for the Bible declares that all of us are sinners.
The Lord looked down from heaven upon the children of men, to see if there were any that did understand, and seek God. They are all gone aside, they are all together become filthy: there is none that doeth good, no, not one.” Psalms 14:2-3 KJV
I guess our world reflects what the Bible declares we are. A mess. Jesus, the Son of God, came to die for us all to make us holy and to clean our souls up~to forgive our sins and heal us spiritually~to make us one with Him. This is very good news and fills me with such joy and peace!
Peace I Leave with You
Jesus said, “Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.” John 14:27 KJV
I appreciate Christ’s gift of salvation and forgiveness more than I can ever say because of my chronic migraine affliction. Therefore I pray that I will never forget, mislay, or cease to care about this wondrous benefit from God, this gift and treasure of everlasting life and peace with God that my Lord Jesus suffered and died on the cross to give me and everyone in the whole world who will receive it.
“Bless the Lord, O my soul: and all that is within me, bless His holy name. Bless the Lord, O my soul, and forget not all His benefits…” Psalms 103:1-2 KJV In Jesus’ name, Amen and amen.
Heavenly Father, Thank You for Your Gift of Salvation in Christ, the forgiveness of sins As far as the east is from the west, Your measureless love for us, Oh thank You and may we never forget Or mislay, or cease to care about all You do for us every day For Thy mercies are new every morning, In Jesus name. Amen and amen.
On the cross Christ bore the sins Of all humanity Not all the pain and sin and shame For all eternity Not even all the hosts of hell Nor death claimed victory…
Over Christ, God’s only Son Who shed His spotless blood To redeem our sinful souls And make us each His child…
Born anew in righteousness, Not ours but Christ’s alone, A righteousness we could not earn But His redemption clothed.
Christ purchased righteousness for us With His spotless blood; We receive His gift of grace, By faith we know and trust
That God is ever faithful, That He can never lie He was faithful to His Son To raise Him back to life After Jesus bore our sins And suffered hell three days His Father kept His Holy Word And rose Him from the grave…
Now He lives to die no more So all can now be saved Who come to Christ for salvation When to the Lord they pray Asking Christ into their heart His children now are they To ever walk with Him by faith To love Jesus with all their heart And ever sing His praise. In Jesus’ holy name, Amen.
“In hope of eternal life, which God, that cannot lie, promised before the world began;” Titus 1:2 KJV
“For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God: Not of works, lest any man should boast.” Ephesians 2:8-9 KJV
“For He hath made Him to be sin for us, who knew no sin; that we might be made the righteousness of God in Him.” 2 Corinthians 5:21 KJV
“Therefore my heart is glad, and my glory rejoiceth: my flesh also shall rest in hope.
For Thou wilt not leave my soul in hell; neither wilt Thou suffer Thine Holy One to see corruption.” ~ Psalms 16:9-10 KJV
“For we walk by faith and not by sight…” 2 Corinthians 5:7
“For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in Him should not perish, but have everlasting life. For God sent not His Son into the world to condemn the world; but that the world through Him might be saved.” John 3:16-17 KJV
Dear Heavenly Father, thank You for loving the world so much that You sent Thy only Son Jesus Christ to die for our sins, that we might not perish, but have everlasting life with Thee. Jesus Christ is our indescribable Gift of eternal life from Thee. We thank You for the cross and the resurrection. We love You. In Jesus’ name, Amen.
It is with great sorrow that Mark and I share with you the sad news that our little Yorkie Miss Phee has passed away.
We would like to thank all of you who prayed for her during her recent illness. She put up a brave fight but in the end it was the Lord’s will to take her home.
We are so thankful that she lived nearly twelve years with us which was truly miraculous. Our vet had told us that dogs with a liver shunt like Miss Phee usually only survive between three to five years without the surgery that can sometimes correct the problem, and between eight to ten years with the surgery, if the liver shunt is even operable.
Not only was the surgery very risky, the recovery process imposed impossible demands upon a little high strung dog, not withstanding the dangerous odds that once they got into the operation, her shunt might be inoperable.
When we first discovered Phee’s liver shunt, the Lord reminded me of His original promise He’d given me three years earlier, when as a puppy she’d had to have her spaying done the second time because of her allergy to the sutures.
The Lord had promised He would give my little Phee a long life and that she was going to be a healthy little dog. He said that her liver shunt was but a bump on her path of life and that He was still going to give her many long happy years with us.
I questioned God at the time. “But Lord, You promised she would be a healthy little dog. A liver shunt is not a healthy dog! Why did You tell me she would be healthy when You knew all along that she was defective?”
“I never lie,” the Lord reminded me of His word which says, “In hope of eternal life, which God, that cannot lie, promised before the world began;” Titus 1:2 KJV
Then I must have heard Your promise wrong! I fussed at God.
“No you did not,” the Lord reassured my heart. “I promised she would be a healthy little dog on MY terms, not your terms. Just as you are healthy and strong on My terms as long as you abide in Me and stay within the boundaries I have set for you, and take your medications, You are able to do all that I enable you to do, You are able to accomplish My will and purpose for you on this earth. That is My definition of good health. I don’t define good health on your terms.
“For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, saith the Lord. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts.” Isaiah 55:8-9 KJV
If you demand that I conform to your definitions and terms of health or healing or anything in this life, You will always be disappointed with Me and never believe that You hear from Me. You will never be able to walk by faith. And without faith You cannot hope to walk with Me…”
““Behold, his soul which is lifted up is not upright in him: but the just shall live by his faith.” Habakkuk 2:4 KJV
We opted to believe God’s promise and to trust Him. He promised that if we gave little Phee the proper medications and diet that she would be a healthy little dog.
Throughout all the years Miss Phee lived with us we found God faithful to His word. She truly was a healthy little dog even though we sometimes even gave her little treats like cheese that she craved.
All I can figure is that God had mercy on her little soul and let her have something special sometimes to vary her restricted diet.
An extremely finicky eater, could any dog have despised dog food more than Miss Phee? But had we eaten the stuff, she would have gobbled it right up! She craved anything that we ate. Especially all of the naughty things she was not supposed to eat… 🙂 She somehow always knew if something was dog food though~ even the gourmet most expensive variety. She would have no parts of it.
She was seven parts human, 2 parts cat, and one part little ferocious doggy who thought she was bigger than the biggest doggy in the world with a severe bark.
God was faithful to His word. He indeed “…keeps every promise forever.” ~Psalm 146:6 For Miss Phee was like a healthy little puppy in every way as long as we gave her the medications and appropriate diet for a liver shunt dog… until almost six months past her eleventh birthday.
In the late Fall she became dangerously ill, but thankfully recovered. When she became ill again in January her vet diagnosed back pain due to her constant jumping and twirling.
For she was still jumping and twirling despite all our efforts to curb this behavior to help her back heal. Miss Phee loved to jump and twirl always. It was just her nature. Jump and twirl for treats…jump and twirl…pick me up…jump and twirl to tell us she was happy and so forth…
Her vet let us know that the main issue was no longer her back from her constant jumping. For no matter which way he’d moved her on the examining table, she did not seem to be in any pain. It was her liver shunt. Her body was failing her. An excellent vet, he worked so hard with us to help her survive.
Off and on since this past January Phee would get well and then sick again…it was like the Lord was preparing us to let go of her. Even three days before she went back to Jesus, she had a momentary surge of energy where she was able to “jump and twirl” like her old self. She even barked!
I dared hope that she might be healed. But then she continued to regress until we saw that she would never recover and was in a state of constant suffering.
Mark and I have wept for the last week in grief over losing our beloved little Phee. She was so special to us.
The other morning just before waking I had the most amazing dream. I woke up smiling.
“Honey,” I said to Mark who was sleeping beside me. “I dreamed about Miss Phee!” Mark said groggily, “What did you dream?”
“Phee was sitting on the Lord’s lap and He was feeding her what she always lusted after in this life~a chocolate peanut butter cup! And you know what! Little Phee could talk!
She said, “Look Mommy! See what I can do now!” Then she proceeded to take a flying leap off the Lord’s lap ~ she went really far too!
Then the Lord produced this bright green coiled leash out of nowhere and suddenly it sprang out and reeled Miss Phee back to Him like a yo yo! She laughed and yipped, and barked and twirled like it was a really fun game.
She sprang off His lap and He reeled her in again two or three times, and she laughed and barked and yipped and twirled just like her little self! Have you ever?”
Mark smiled. “Phee always did beg for those peanut butter cups. And you always told her that dogs had to wait till the Marriage Supper of the Lamb to eat chocolate!”
“Honey~that dream isn’t literal~ don’t you know the Lord gave me that dream to assure us that our little Phee is with Him and that she’s happily playing fun games with Jesus who loves her!
Now she’s where she can leap out as far as she wants and can even jump and twirl again!
And best of all, she can even eat chocolate! All the things that she couldn’t do in this life… For there are no bad things in Heaven!
And I reckon the leash is to show that even in Heaven there are boundaries. The Lord God always must be obeyed, worshiped, and feared by all creatures in Heaven as well as on earth. For He is the Lord of all Creation.
I’m just certain that dream is surely metaphorical!”
“Well…right now I prefer to think Phee doggie is sitting on Jesus’ lap and eating Reese’s cups and I’m going back to my “metaphorical” sleep…”
We both miss our little dog dreadfully but we are thankful to the Lord who holds her now, knowing she is no longer suffering and in pain.
I truly believe that little Phee is where we who trust in Christ as our Savior will be someday, with Jesus and our Heavenly Father who will wipe all our tears away and make all things new.
SCRIPTURES FOR MEDITATION…
And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes; and there shall be no more death, neither sorrow, nor crying, neither shall there be any more pain: for the former things are passed away. And he that sat upon the throne said, Behold, I make all things new. And he said unto me, Write: for these words are true and faithful.” Revelation 21:4-5 KJV
All NATURE WILL BE REDEEMED FROM BONDAGE BY CHRIST…
“For the creature was made subject to vanity, not willingly, but by reason of him who hath subjected the same in hope,
Because the creature itself also shall be delivered from the bondage of corruption into the glorious liberty of the children of God.
For we know that the whole creation groaneth and travaileth in pain together until now.
And not only they, but ourselves also, which have the firstfruits of the Spirit, even we ourselves groan within ourselves, waiting for the adoption, to wit, the redemption of our body.” Romans 8:19-23 KJV
All CREATURES WORSHIP GOD WITH WHATEVER VOICES THEY ARE GIVEN…
And I beheld, and I heard the voice of many angels round about the throne and the beasts and the elders: and the number of them was ten thousand times ten thousand, and thousands of thousands; Saying with a loud voice, “Worthy is the Lamb that was slain to receive power, and riches, and wisdom, and strength, and honor, and glory, and blessing.”
And every creature which is in heaven, and on the earth, and under the earth, and such as are in the sea, and all that are in them, heard I saying, “Blessing, and honor, and glory, and power, be unto him that sitteth upon the throne, and unto the Lamb for ever and ever.” Revelation 5:11-13 KJV
Thank You Heavenly Father, for the gift of Miss Phee. What a beautiful little treasure she was to us. Though she will not return to us, we have the blessed assurance that we will go to her someday and be reunited with her again in Paradise with You because of Thy Son Jesus Christ’s gift of redemption for us and for all of Thy Creation. Thank You for Thy gift of immeasurable love for us, in Jesus’ name, amen. ❤️
Special thanks go out to Dr. Wright and all of the compassionate, caring staff at the Riner Animal Hospital for all of their excellent care for Miss Phee during her long, precious life with us.
Thank you especially to Dr. Richard Wright for working so hard to save our little Phee during her final illness.
What a blessing it is to know that there are such amazing people in this world who will go to any and every length to save God’s precious creatures.
May they always be honored and blessed for their compassionate and tireless dedication.